Dreams. Thoughts. Wonders. Happiness.
Let them all rest here to stay.
I’m not sure what’s going on with me at the moment. Things around me seem sort of hazy. I feel like I’m walking around in a dream, though I’m pretty sure it’s reality. My mind’s floating a lot and I’m not sure if it’s a good thing. Time feels like it just flies by. My life itself feels like it’s flying by.
It started this way after I reverted. I’ve already said so…but I’m not sure that this is something good. Not sure it’s something bad either. It’s just something that’s happening.
There’s one thing good about this though.
I’m thinking. People think on a daily basis, yes. But I end up pondering more on things that are in the world around me. Things that are related to my interests. Things that are a part of my experiences…
I end up reflecting on them and thinking again.
I guess it means I’m going back to being more introverted.
That’s not bad. I’ve actually been a bit thrown off that I haven’t been reflecting and pondering on things. Conversations become less interesting. Blog posts disappear. I end up just going with shallow topics. So maybe this is something good.
Well, in any case, it’s just something interesting to me.
This floating and this constant pondering and thinking were normal for me before I changed. I never said anything about it before though as I was afraid to let people into my head.
Right now…a touch of extroversion allowed me to voice out my thoughts…though with returning to my introversion, I can think before I speak.
I guess that this is something good then as right now…I’m not paralyzed to speak and lose my chance at allowing my voice to sound…but at least, I think about things before I say anything so as to make my message clear for no misunderstandings to arise.
I still have a long way to go though. After all…I still have that tendency to shoot my mouth off and I probably hurt someone in the process.
All I can do though is say sorry, try and make amends and then develop.
Three steps to getting better.
Three steps to learning.
All from thinking.
It’s funny how fads go…
People see something pretty or beautiful or hot or whatever…and then they get dazzled by it to the point of spreading it around. Then soon, some people copy it. Some people try to embody the beauty that they see before them…
And that’s what I usually see now with the trends in Korean fashion.
Well, at least, around the Philippines.
There are so many cute Korean girls around here now. Their fashion is cute. Their appearances are cute. And so on. A K-Pop wave has arrived and has made their cuteness and fashion even more known. Now, more and more people want to ride that wave of Korean cuteness…
Then again, whenever I see the pictures of the cuteness…I remind myself that it doesn’t suit everyone. One style doesn’t fit all. Especially since everyone is unique. There are some things that suit one person and yet doesn’t suit another.
Koreans in the pictures I’ve seen have several defining traits.
Though I find that they’re everything that I’m not.
My style doesn’t match what most people deem as pretty or enchanting with the Korean wave. Then again…I realized that I could care less about that as it doesn’t mean that I’m not pretty to begin with.
I have my own style. I have my own taste. I have my own beauty.
And no one can tell me that I’m not beautiful when I’m proud of my own skin.
As I’m religious, I consider my body a gift from God and cherish it as much as possible. The best way I think I could do so is by making sure I take care of myself in the best way I can…and also, be proud of what I have in a way that makes me feel good and respectable.
So the next time I usually look at a picture of someone pretty or beautiful…I just think that. There’s a bit of envy…but then again…I also think that I’m not them. I can’t be them.
I am me. Beautiful me.
A smile graces my lips.
My day grows brighter.
And I love the moment.
Hope others can feel this brightness too, honestly.
2012 is upon us…and with a new year comes a resolution here and there.
In my case…I decided to have goals for the year. And not just one…but 3 goals for 2012, as they say that the best things come in threes.
They’re quite simple anyway. Two monetary and one more personal and emotional goal…
First is to be able to attain P104,000 in my bank account within the year. The magical number of P104,000 didn’t just come nowhere though. There’s a reason for it…though I don’t think that I’ll divulge it here as it’s something personal for me.
Second is to be able to stop buying new cosplay and lolita fashion or whatever within the year. My ultimate goal though is to stop doing so within 6 months. I’m not sure if this is doable…at least my ultimate goal…but then again, I’d like to work on getting my dreams…and hopefully, sometime soon so I can focus on other things.
Third is to love myself more within the year and really find my light.I’m not 100% sure how I’ll really see if this goal has been attained…but I guess that I’ll just have to see the year through to the end in order to really check. Though I want this to come to the point that whenever people see me…I won’t bring them down.
It’s not that I’d care too much about them…or let them care much about me…but given how last year went…I don’t want to hurt people anymore…and I want to make amends to those that I have hurt - at least…those who still matter to me and who I still matter to.
I just want peace now. Nothing but simple peace and happiness within myself as I bathe in my own light…
I wonder if I can attain these goals…
Only one way to find out.
Just keep on living.
Reblogged from cutekawaiiness
What stuck to me most is the last part.
I just love God which is why I reblog…
Reblogged from cutekawaiiness
I’m the greatest proof. Love you Leo ♥
Guess that says a lot about how much I’m still very much in love with you…
I hope on this day…and I will continue to hope…that you’ll give me a second chance someday. Please do…
…it helps that I believe that for some reason…that it’ll be so worth it.
You are worth it. And I hope you can see that in me too.
May God bless us with love…or so I continue to pray.
And I hope that we might fight the darkness that may challenge that…and allow light to shine through.